the 3rd morning

I had one very short craving this morning. Lasted only about 5 minutes.

I am kinda going through a manic type episode when I get a craving. It is very strange but in order to get through the craving, I HAVE to do something constructive. Yesterday I took part the kids playhouse and moved it outside. Last night after dinner, I started randomly cleaning things. Odd behavior, even for me. So if this oddness does not subside soon, I think I am going to ask my dr for some medical help. I do not feel I need it to continue to not smoke, just to control the odd behaviors.

I slept very well last night but I had to take some nyquil to fall asleep. UGH! This can't last too much longer, these withdrawal symptoms.

44 hours and counting

last night was horrible. I couldn't sleep, I felt dizzy, I felt twitchy. My brain would not shut off so I could fall asleep. It was terrible. The cravings have subsided but I believe I am experience withdrawal symptoms. Along with not smoking, my chocolate cravings have increased and I fear that my weight will as well but in all honesty if I gain some weight, the health benefits from not smoking will far outweigh the temporary weight gain. And it will be temporary. I just have to control it so it does not get too out of hand.

24 hours of smoke-free-ness

the cravings are managable so far. I have heard that the first 24 hours are usually not too bad it is the next 48 hours that are the worst.

Other than the kids driving me crazy with the whininess and demanding today (normally I have a bit more patience).

I have no smokes in the house and no way to get any so even if I wanted one I couldn't get one.

DONE FOR GOOD!!!

As soon as my last 4 cigarrettes are gone I am done for good. I will not smoke again. I have quit each of my pregnancies only to restart again. With the rising cost of everything and the fact that I am not currently employed I cannot afford to support this habit anymore. I am prepared to be angry, anxious and not myself for the next few days. I NEED to do this and I need to do it cold turkey. That is the only way that works for me. I have to do this for my health. I do not smoke around my kids but I know that the health benefits of me not smoking will be good for them too. So I am going to keep track of my efforts and my cravings etc here. wish me luck. I am serious this time. I have gum and hard candy. I have been working the last week on breaking a couple other smoking related habits, such as smoking right after dinner outside and first thing in the morning after the girls are set.

retail therapy

I got a little retail therapy today. I took Kait and we went to use our gift cards. I bought mostly groceries but I did get myself a new pair of pj pants and hubby a lined denim shirt jacket. He has been wanting a new one since he wears his old one to work all the time and it smells. I have washed it but the smell just won't come out. The pants were on sale for $6 and the jacket was $15.

We hit some pretty good grocery sales. We got potatoes for $1.39 for a 10lb bag. 3lbs of onions for 79 cents, bananas for 39 cents a lb., Mountain Dew for $4.48 a case (with coupon), and a bag of boneless skinless chicken breasts for $6. There were 7 huge breasts in the bag. I got honey turkey lunch meat for $1.98 a lb. I repackage and freeze lunchmeat for Hubby. Laundry Detergent for $5 for a huge container. We got a bunch of other things we needed too.

I only ended up paying $42 for all I got because we had $35 in gift cards left. That was great.

Because the price of cigarrettes is going up by $1 a pack on the 1st, I got hubby some cartons at the discount shop too. He wants to quit too but is starting by cutting back first.

Life changes

Aside from trying to lose weight, I am going to quit smoking.....again. I am going to quit on New Years' day. I haven't really been smoking a lot but I started again shortly after that baby was born. I do not smoke around the kids.

I quit both times I was pregnant but I just can't seem to stay not smoking. I am going to do it this time. I am done!

I haven't done too well this week on the weight loss front. It sucks. I ate way too much yesterday. We got a ton of goodies from people. I have been passing them on to others for the most part. So I know this week is going to be a bust at weigh-in time but I expected that.